I’m looking at you right now as you’re sitting on the couch, and all I can think of is how perfect life is at this moment. It’s still not soaking in that you’re actually RIGHT HERE. This whole month is gonna be so exciting! For a week or so, this will probably be my last post, as everything I want to say can go into your ears instead of onTumblr. I’ll try and make this month very memorable. I love you babe! :)
For once in my life, I found love. I used to be that person who was very cynical about the very idea. I saw too many relationships end, where the couple were supposedly “in love”. So during a time in high school, I completely gave up on having anything serious with girls. I saw people who had their hearts broken, and ripped out of their chest. Seeing this, I got really defensive with my heart. I was terrified of having it broken. The prospect of giving someone your absolute trust, and sharing with them your most intimate thoughts seemed great, though I figured the other person would eventually destroy it all. That was my mindset at the time.
Then you came along. You changed my perspective on love so drastically. I even tried to fight it when I realized I was falling in love with you. I kept replaying the question of, “What’s the point? How are we gonna end up any different from all those failed relationships?” Somewhere along those thoughts, I started to develop an entirely new point of view on love. I realized that yes, it’s okay to be cautious. However, you just have to live and flow along with life. Maybe you won’t find true love right away. I started to believe that love is something that can’t be searched for, but rather chanced upon.
That’s when I saw you in an entirely new light. The girl who I had just fallen in love with, had been in my life for the better part of 11 years. I had miraculously chanced upon this, but I just didn’t realize it.
You asked me what makes us different from everyone else. And to be honest, I don’t know how to answer that. All I can say is that it just feels right. For once, I’m not scared that this new relationship is going to end, because I know somewhere in this heart of a champion, that we are going to last until we stop breathing. I’ve grown to love everything about you. Your personality, your appearance, your quirks, your scent, your smile, and especially your desire to be with me. We click on so many levels that I have never experienced. We actually welcome “conversation lag” and can just enjoy being in the other’s company. We have no barriers to each other and trust each other completely. Babe, I can go on and on until this post hits the depths of Tumblr, but that would hurt my hands.
So for the first time, I have given someone else my heart. It takes A LOT to get it from me, but you’ve shown me that you’re the perfect keeper for it. So it’s all yours babe, I know for a fact that you’ll take good care of it, and I swear I will always do the same for you. Just know that I WILL DO ANYTHING IT TAKES TO MAKE THIS RELATIONSHIP LAST. I love you too much to live life without you.
You’ll be wrapped up in my arms while you’re asleep on my chest. I’ll look at your cute face and listen to your soft breathing and think, “I don’t ever want this moment to end.”
You’ll be cuddling with me under blankets while we watch a movie and I’ll think, “How did I get such an amazing girl to fall in love with me?”
You’ll be you eating all the junk I do, like Taco Bell, pizza, chips and other crap, while I think, “We really were meant to be.”
You’ll be having a difficult time and bury your face in my chest to escape the world, while I think, “I’ll be her shield, so she doesn’t have to suffer like this.”
You’ll be having a great time filled with your beautiful laughter, and I’ll think, “I never want to see that smile disappear.”
You’ll be graduating college at the same time as me, and I’ll think, “I can finally start my life with the woman I love.”
You’ll be mad at me, and I’ll come back with Milky Ways, water with a slice of lemon (no ice!) and a can of Sour Cream and Onion Pringles, give you a huge hug, and I’ll think, “She’s so cute when she’s mad.”
You’ll be traveling the world with me, and I’ll think, “There’s nobody else that I’d rather do this with.”
You’ll be old with me and we’ll sit on our porch, enjoying a beautiful day, and I’ll think, “It was really fun living my life with you by my side.”
You’ll be watching over me as my health gets worse, and I’ll think, “Don’t worry babe, I won’t leave you here by yourself just yet.”
You’ll be holding my hand as my vision fades and my breathing slows, and I’ll look into your eyes and say, “Goodbye Gab, you were the love of my life.”
I love you so much. Don’t ever change. I love you and everything about you. Good night.
